Thinking a lot about the person I want to be lately.
My last post spoke of mortality. Urgency. Life as humans is undoubtedly finite. There’s a 100% chance we will one day not have a tomorrow.
Growing up in a troubled household, keeping my mind busy with the “future” was the only thing I could reliably cling on to maintain sanity. And I did so, blindly. But now, with those years already darting away in the rear-view mirror, I’m finding it hard to take pause on what can be a hamster wheel of life.
I’m working to rewire my brain to add: “but you can’t always do better forever.”
So then, it’s a matter of goals. Priorities.
What do I want to be when I grow up? I’m already grown up. I am already something. That future is now.
Take a breath.
Then, evolve. To be different? Maybe. Better? Definitely. Higher up on the hamster wheel? Well, perhaps we don’t want to get back on that indefinite circular ladder after all…