identity

Thinking a lot about the person I want to be lately.

My last post spoke of mortality. Urgency. Life as humans is undoubtedly finite. There’s a 100% chance we will one day not have a tomorrow.

Growing up in a troubled household, keeping my mind busy with the “future” was the only thing I could reliably cling on to maintain sanity. And I did so, blindly. But now, with those years already darting away in the rear-view mirror, I’m finding it hard to take pause on what can be a hamster wheel of life.

“You can always do better.”

I’m working to rewire my brain to add: “but you can’t always do better forever.”

So then, it’s a matter of goals. Priorities.

What do I want to be when I grow up? I’m already grown up. I am already something. That future is now.

Take a breath.

Then, evolve. To be different? Maybe. Better? Definitely. Higher up on the hamster wheel? Well, perhaps we don’t want to get back on that indefinite circular ladder after all…

“Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” — Ferris Bueller